There was once some hope.

A little flame of positivity and faith.

A bright glance of heaven

But as time goes on all that starts to fade away.

Now i’m stuck in a dark corner, no hope to keep me living.

The positivity that was once keeping me from crying all night, disappeared into the darkness of the night.

This burden of loneliness within my head.

Isolation within four walls of my home.

Invisible to the prying eyes of the wild beasts.

Deprived of sunlight that once gave me life.

i’m far from healing, far from living, far from the world I once knew.

i’m lost in this wild thorny bush of chaos with no exit. The echo of my cry disappears in the wild winds of the night. my tears dried up by the storm of the darkness just as they drop.

The feeling is deep

Too deep to elaborate, because there are no words to explain it.

The dictionary couldn’t help me to make sense of it all. The wise man, cried, when he couldn’t help me understand my own pain.

The feeling is too deep for anyone else to understand not even me. I feel my body calling, but i can’t help the fatigue creeping up and down my veins.

I hear my heart crying, but i can’t reach it to soothe its pain.

The deeper I go, the busier my mind.

The more I think, the darker the clouds hovering over me, blinding the vision of joy. With every beat of my heart in the dark, my bones cracked and grounded into dust.

I’m buried in the dark.

Invisible to the world

Living the nightmare that never ends.

i wake up hoping it will disappear.

But every time i fall back to sleep, it jumps back on me like a pack of wolves, taking advantage of my weakness.

when the feeling is deep, I go down deeper to the bottom of a hopeless world, where no one can comfort a soul in deep crisis.